My Love-Hate Relationship with Running

What does running mean to you?

For me, it is a way to escape the world. Let go of all the problems. Focus. Running has brought me so many perfect moments that I can only remember with a big smile on my face… Running is my thing.

Don’t get me wrong, I have never been a serious runner. My speed, my distance, my whatever – they are not good. I am sweating and panting, and my heart is beating like crazy when I am on the run. However, it is nothing compared to the satisfaction I receive when I finish the run strong. When I manage to get to my little goal.

I fell in love with running for real this summer. I was seriously overweight. Ok, I am still a bit overweight but that is not my point here. I could only jog for five minutes – and even that was crazily, impossibly hard for me. I wanted to cry because I was so bad at it. Well, I did cry. And then I started moving forward. 7 minutes, 10 minutes. 15 was something very big for me. At the end of the summer, I could run more than 30. But the most important thing is – I wanted to. I wanted to put on my old scruffy sneakers and go.

I always ran in the sunset. The road was completely different from the city. No asphalt. Just pine trees all around me, and an occasional fox running over the road. It was perfect. Now I wish I was back there, moving my feet forward, and pushing, pushing hard. That is one of my happy places.

Well, of course it is not all lovely. Running is hellishly hard for me. Sometimes I still want to cry when I run, most definitely because I have fallen back on running, and I don’t have my perfect scenery anymore because it is winter and I am back to the city. More often than not I want to hit or kick the treadmill hard. But it does not matter.

As crazy each training session is, as bad as I want to stop sometimes, I don’t quit. I move forward, enjoying each and every minute of the torture. I think about my summer runs and smile. I love it and I hate it, and there is nothing I can do about it.

I wish all of you guys to find your passion, whether it is running or something else. Want to tell me about it? I will be glad to hear. Happy running. guys!

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